You've been through such a trying 8 months since last December. Perhaps you don't understand why you're getting injections, don't understand why your Mom and Dad can look so upset at times, don't understand why we fidget with your food to get it in line with the proportions appropriate for your needs, and look at us questioningly when you see other children running around with popsicles, candy, and food while thier parents blindly hand them more on demand without so much as a second glance. Perhaps you don't, but I think you do. You're sharp my girl, and have a tenacity and an understanding well beyond your years.
I wish I knew how a low felt, and how a high blood sugar felt. I wish I knew, so I could help you get through it better than giving you juice for your lows, or trying to get you to drink water for your highs.
More than anything I wish I could take this away from you. I would do anything to have this be me dealing with all of this and let you have the carefree existing you deserve.
Above all else though Mia, I know how strong you are. I know how much fun you have with your friends, and with your family. I can see how intelligently you observe things. I'm in awe at how quickly you do understand things. And when you run up to me at the end of the day when I get home from working, I know you love your Mom and I, and I know you know how very much we love you.
Having you in my life is the best thing that has ever happened to me. I do not believe we are predestined for anything, but for all that, I know that I was meant to be your dad. That is the single most important reason for me being here today - to be your father and to every day remind you of how beautiful, intelligent, and wonderful you are.
No matter what we have to go through, and no matter the challenges you face with diabetes or with any other aspect of your life, know that I will always be there for you. Yours is a light destined to shine forever.
Love
Your adoring Dad.
